Words of Acadiana

 Sitting here at this table  My cigarette burning to ash  As it hangs from my lips like hope  About to fall into oblivion  Aces up my sleeve  Not wanting to believe  You thought I’d come crawling back to you  But I saunter in with a firmness  That could crumble mountains to dust  A tectonic shift in energies  A real reversal of fortune  These games with you just ain’t it  They’re the reason my heart has to run  Like a frightened horse  Thundering in the opposite direction  So simmer down  And pucker up  It’s bound to sting  Buttercup  This leaving a love that can’t sustain  This walking away before the pain  Treading against a lonely earth  In search of the next new me  As the wind blows life back into my lungs  I’m struck by a glittering cloud of dust  Choking away my human remains  Tip my hat to it  I’ll skip the wake  Burial leads to rebirth...

 And I stand on my hill  Embattled  Distressed as my jeans  From crawling across this arid earth  Begging for love  Longing for acceptance  ‘Til it struck me  Under this desert sun  That I hold the power with my faith  To overcome  These desert valleys echo my screams  Shattering limestone with my intentions  I rise again  Slowly at first  Shaky wings  Healing can feel like hell  Eventually I ascend above the hurt  My view, heavenly  Put my past to rest  A funeral for who I had to be  I have a ministry I was born for  My destiny written in the brail of these night stars  West Texas under my feet  A song in my soul  To Overcome 

 Your ghost keeps me up at night  Smokes in my room  I smell it  That olfactory trigger  Memories develop like Polaroids  Moments frozen in time  Like smiles on celluloid  Black and white dreams  Laughter echoes my empty room  I fell for the hologram that was your love  Vanished as quickly as it came  So I strike up a match  Invite that ghost to hang a while  Perhaps he will tell me things  You were not evolved enough to say  Smoking with ghosts  Exhaling my grief  Rising from the ashes  That have fallen to the floor 

 My eyes gaze  At a sinking desert sun  The light is blinding  So pure  My heart is filled with love and longing  In equal measure  The love of you lingers  The longing moves in so quickly  An aching takes residence  In your absence  Dry earth  Then the flood  Moods shifting like the weather  A desert is like love  Rewarding and punishing simultaneously  I wander this desert of my own making  Screaming to the skies above  To bring me your love  To let it fall down upon me  My life force  I wear your embrace like a bruise  Slow to fade after the moment has expired  Things that don’t mean shit to you  Swallow my entire existence  You carved your name into my heart  Now I need you to lick the scar  Make your way back to me  This desert is meant for two  One just doesn’t do  These dark necessities are feeding on me  C’mon reach for my han...

Coffee in my glass Horses in my dreams  Equine energy  In waves like the sea  I was born of the desert  Hell and high water  I’ve crawled across dry earth  Scaled my mountains of hurt  To bring to you this version  Searching for requited love  It’s there for your taking  Should you so choose  Mud and Sun formed me  To fall in love with you  Piss and vinegar mask my tender heart  Your face is my shelter  This love, my truest art  So come on and love me  My silly boy  Make it all feel worthwhile  Come on and love me  My blue eyed boy  Make me hang around for a while.   

 Sometimes in the healing process, you have to cut ties. It’s wonderful how things well up inside of us when we are ready to confront the work.