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Just The Desert

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  I buried a version of myself without flowers I buried a version of myself without flowers No casseroles cooling on church tables No black umbrellas opening like wounds Just the desert wide as forgiveness and the long ache of wind moving through dry grass like someone whispering my old name for the last time I carried him carefully The man who learned how to survive by becoming useful beautiful enough quiet enough wanted enough to remain invited into rooms that never loved him back I folded his shirts like prayer flags I thanked him for keeping me alive through fifty years of highways and motel mirrors of love that arrived hungry and left before morning of standing perfectly still while entire worlds were built on top of him I loved him mostly That is the hardest part Not every life deserves escape Some deserve mourning So I walked him out past the last gas station past the skeletal fences past the mountains that look bruised at sunset The desert did not ask questions It only open...
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Amarillo Motel 6: II.

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  Bathwater Blues II (Holy Water Heartbeat) (Verse 1) I still check in under fake names Still light cigarettes off motel saints Still leave the TV talking low Like somebody might come home Amarillo’s all lavender twilight Truck stop angels and porch-light eyes And I wear your memory loose now Like your flannel falling off my side There’s rosary beads around the lamp shade Lip print kisses on a Styrofoam cup You’re somewhere west of Tucumcari Probably smoking with your boots kicked up (Chorus) Still the best damn bath in the Amarillo Motel 6 Steam rising slow like a prayer on my lips Radio static and the ice machine crying While I replay your hands on my thighs in silence Baby, love used to feel like a roadside crucifix All blood red heartbreak and beautiful tricks But now the water glows soft in the neon mist And I don’t feel lonely in it (Verse 2) There’s a motel Bible by the shampoo packets Your name folded inside like a secret habit Page marked somewhere near forgiveness Though ...
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Never Planned

  They met on a line stretched thin between worlds— not quite earth, not quite sky, just a humming place where things feel permanent until they don’t. Two men, balanced in the same fragile moment, shoulders almost touching, pretending the current beneath them was something like fate. It buzzed through their bones— that dangerous kind of closeness, the kind that feels like home before you’ve checked the foundation. He learned the shape of him slowly— the way his laughter cut through silence, the way his eyes held distance even when he leaned in, like a horizon that never stopped moving. They never named it. Just let it live there— on that wire, between heartbeat and hesitation, between what was spoken and what stayed trembling in the throat. Some loves don’t bloom. They hover. They exist in the almost— in late nights that stretch too far, in hands that almost reach, in glances that land and then look away like they’ve seen too much. And maybe he knew. Maybe somewhere in the quiet, h...
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Undone

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  My eyes hold the Western sun   Not the fire-just the ending When everything has come undone  Gold bleeding into dust  After descending shades of rust Like a promise never mending You said “forever” in the dusk  Like it wasn’t already leaving Like the dark don’t follow light  Like I wouldn’t keep believing  Now I’m walking into silence  Where the sky don’t say my name  Where the earth don’t call it love  Just burns it down all the same  You were a storm without a center  I was water you outrun  Now I’m blooming in the desert  Underneath this dying sun  You lit me up like something sacred  The disappeared without a trace  Left your echoes in my body  Like a ghost without a face  But the wind out here is honest  It won’t beg and it won’t stay  It just carves away the past  ‘Til there’s nothing left to say  So I’m breathing in the silence  Letting heat undo my bones...
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Veronica Electronica

  She walks where the earth has forgotten softness— a cathedral of fracture and bone-dry prayer, cracked clay splitting like old confessions no one dared to speak aloud. A desert witch, hair tangled with the slow grief of melting glaciers, ancient ice weeping into strands of silver and salt— memory of oceans she has never seen, yet feels in her blood like a rumor. Ravens circle where nothing should live, black ink against a merciless sky, their wings writing omens she pretends not to read. Beneath her feet, a throbbing— not of the land, but of longing, a rhythm buried deep in the marrow of things, calling her downward, inward, toward something hidden or something lost. She presses her palms into the dust, whispers to it like a lover gone cold. Sigils bloom beneath her fingers, etched in trembling lines— circles, spirals, broken symbols of want. Sage smoke curls from her mouth, not exhale, but invocation. She breathes the past into the present, lets it sting her eyes until she can a...
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The Starry Horse

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 The horse came out of a wound in the sky  Stitched from extinguished stars  And the breath of things unnamed  It did not bow its head  It regarded me as if I were an apparition  When I touched its neck my fingers passed through frost and fire  And the desert opened like a eye that does not close  Peyote dreams  Green lightning bleeding into veins of night  Mountains rising and falling like sleeping beasts  Every grain of sand whispered a tally of bones it had swallowed  Cigarette smoke drifted beside me  Though there was no hand holding it  It unspooled in thin deliberate spirals  Like a sermon spoken by a mouth without a face  A dive bar in the horizon  Neon buzzed like trapped insects  A jukebox coughing up dusty confessions  Whiskey staining the wood with amber halos  Men bent over their glasses like penitents  Drinking to forget the shapes of their own shadows  The starry h...
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The Desert Never Forgets

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  At the crossroads where the desert splits itself like a wound, I sat.  I found a dive bar flickering under  neon bones of red and blue , a last-chance lantern for the lost. Inside,  country music bled slow from a cracked jukebox, steel guitar crying like a ghost that still remembered my name. Cigarette smoke curled into grey serpents above the bar, hissing secrets only the midnight and the damned could decipher. I drank  whiskey-bent lies straight from the bottle— truth tasted too clean for a night like this. The bartender’s eyes were moons of their own, half-lit, half-shadowed, seeing more than he ever dared speak aloud. Outside, the  full moon  hung heavy, round as an omen, bright as a spell, pulling at the sand, the blood, at every crossroads choice I’d buried under years of wandering. A gust rose from the west— warm, wicked, whispering— and I felt the desert stir, a witch’s hand brushing my spine , reminding me that magic lives in moments like th...
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