Words of Acadiana

  My past selves   Lain strewn about the firmament  Of my life  Slowing rotting away  Their decay, glorious  They selflessly pave the way  For the newer me to emerge  They form a rich soil  Which feeds the energy of who I need to become  Never a failure  No matter how brief their existence  They live on under my feet  Under my skin  Within my breath  Forever giving thanks 

  You came in like the ocean   Flooding me with false love  Treacherous seas  Lapped at my heart  Carving out voids  I’ll never be able to fill again  You’ve left me a fossil of who I once was  The echoes of your waves haunt me  I long for the freedom of a sea gull  To fly so high I disappear  To glance down at the ocean of you  Knowing I survived  My cry, a warning  To the next unfortunate victim  Of your tidal of love 

  The devil wind   Blowing in  Swept you across the surface of my heart  Stole my hat  Never getting nothing back  Deserted in the desert  Just a face full of dust  In this blistering sun  And a heart full of ache  A regretful stance  Head cocked back  Guess I’m grateful you’re in my rearview  Tumbleweeds  My only friends  Prickly and dry  We have commonalities  Fuck this town And fuck love  Both have driven me to the brink  Drunken madness  A galaxy above this earthen    hell  The stars blanket me in the cold night  Pins of light  Pierce through bleak    darkness  Hope evades me  What protects me?  Perhaps blind faith  Illuminating my path  Unforeseen saviors  Sometimes lead us out of destruction A hell of my own doings  A fuckery I must now accept 

  My mind is a museum   Of things I’d rather forget  Your touch  Taste  Smell  Love  It’s been an especially scorching summer  Mercury rises  Gives way to fever dreams  And I’d go back there I guess  But I wouldn’t belong there anymore  No longer feel whole  You took so much  And the void in me  Is a ribbon of loneliness  I’m learning to dance with  Not in the glare of the mid day sun  But in the soft shadows of midnight  My pain cloaked in streetlight glow  My feet traverse cobblestones  One wrong move  And my bones could crush  The exquisite pain Of loving someone so unlovable  It’s like a death sentence  This waiting  Waiting for you to grow up  Evolve  Change  So that I can see you as perfect again  Perhaps that’s my fatal flaw  Seeing what could be  What should be  And being mauled over when it can’t be realized  I...

  Me   Sitting up in my bed  In the middle of the night  Watching you  Texting him  Shadows on my wall From refrigerator light  That was the moment I knew  The moment that blew  Me out of the water with you  You became a liar  A cheater  A thief in the night  Pretending to love me  Sneaking away by daylight  So many years later  And I’ve reconciled my feelings  Forgiven you  Moved on  But like a candle in the dark  My love sometimes flickers on  Cast back to then  Trying to figure it out  Guess my heart was meant to be shattered  So I could glue myself back together  Instead of seeking love  I became it  What you did to me then was a favor that time would reveal  Your tired, lifeless eyes stare at me over tapas  I know you weren’t meant to be mine forever  I deserved so much more  And I got it  Once you walked out of my door...

  Hitchhiked through love   Passing town to town  Love to love  Short lived  Like a gas lamp  Flickering until I burned out  Catch me now  Cuz tomorrow I’ll be gone  Wrung myself out  Soaked to the bone  This rainfall  She ain’t no joke  Your broken pieces  Fit my broken pieces  Until you threw us to the floor  Shards stabbing my feet  As I ran away  The shelter I seek  Is always so far off in the distance  But the answer is always me  I lose track of time  It’s all storms blowing through  Chasing wild horses  Thundering in the other direction  I head into the darkness  With the hope of a coming dawn  These western stars light my way  Plastered onto my neck  Like the dirty, forlorn wind  I keep blowing in  And I’ll keep persisting  Until you stop resisting  And like the winds of change  You invite me in