Filling Whole....The Sequel (by James Ludeau IIII from Lafayette,LA)

i mourned you for 40 years

i've been absent for 2

and i've come back renewed

i dance on your grave

sword and shield in hand

stronger

wiser

not guided by the wind like the sails of a ship anymore

in control of my vessel

i celebrate your ending

that's when my torch got lit

turned me into a man when i was a child

and it confused me for so many years

until i figured it out

slayed the dragon that was my past

not the direction i'm headed in anymore

fate played its role

brought me where i was to begin my journey

without you

never knowing that father figure

i tried Filling Wholes

holes

in my heart

in my soul

the struggle seemed so real to me

until i realized it was all in my mind

time has erased any concrete memories of you

you're just a ghost now

and i'm suited up for battle

but what i'm fighting for me is me now

not fighting against anything

i've healed

i've been lifted up

i bear your name

but no resemblance

i've shed that hurt

like an exoskeleton 

it never protected me

i lift a fist full of dirt into the air

and blow it into the wind

your ashes

scattered

i'm the king of my castle now

my crown firmly fixed onto my head