Words of Acadiana

This is the place that I found myself  Beneath the waves  Breathing underwater  Waiting  For that moment  When I knew enough  To be reborn  (West Tisbury)

There are places on earth that heaven shines

Sometimes I despair  Sometimes I have hope  Sometimes I don’t know  This life  Hard to navigate  Hard to know  Hard to grow  Trying to forgive myself  Trying to forgive you  Trying to move forward  Wanting to explore this world  Wanting to explore my head  Wanting to release the past Sometimes I feel happy  Sometimes I feel sad  Sometimes I feel nothing  And I just want to dance And I just want to move  And I just want my groove back  Want to shout it from the mountain top Want to plunge into the depths of the sea  Want to keep it all for me  This moment of joy  This moment of dance  This moment of connection  What’s it all for  What’s it all mean  What’s it all seem  A dream  A feeling  A deeper meaning  I want to fly above  I want to dive beneath  I want to get underneath  Kiss me in the sunset  Kiss me in the rain  Kiss me just to relieve this pain  Have you ever been to the land  Where you can find yoursel

Thought the pain was love  Prayed that it would change for me somehow From hurt to joy  Down on my knees  my God look at me  Asking for the Divine to deliver  The love I didn’t even have for myself  Didn’t realize I was losing my identity  Trying to be what you needed from me  Just needed someone to teach me how to love  When I did not even love myself  You broke my bones  shattered my spirit  It wasn’t love at all  Just possession for you  A doll on the shelf  A man on mute  Something you were proud to own  But never willing to appreciate  And all I wanted was love like I’d never known  What I found was incredible isolation  Indelible damnation  Trapped in a prison of my own creation  Sacrificed for you  Thinking what I had was solid  You slipped through my fingers like liquid  My love was only hope  And even that evaporated  Darkest of days  I sank  I sank  But I swam  Gasping for air  Bobbing helplessly in a sea of h

A dove  A cloud  Green cypress branches  Blue skies  Azular  Feeling it move through me  Move with me  A global beat Shifting  Wind blowing gently  But an undercurrent of danger lurks  Even on a sunny day like this  It’s a feeling of doom  Permeates  Time is ticking  This will vanish  The earth holds secrets  There’s language in the trees  They’ve all had enough  And that wind will howl  Increasing in intensity  Until we are wiped clean away from the surface  All that’s left will be scars  We’ve raped and we’ve ravaged her  Like a sleeping beast she’s lain silent  Yet inside a roar  A rumbling  And you know this won’t end well for us  But she will remain  She will change  After we’ve been erased  Eradicated  Evicted  Her power will be revealed  I feel like it’s unstoppable  Even as I gaze at the beauty of this day 

Tryin’ to force me into a corner  I won’t go  Tryin’ change what I have to say  Cuz you don’t know  What I’ve been through  What I have seen  Got my own story to tell  And you can spit it or swallow it  You know damn well  Started in hell  A parent-less child  Broken smile  Made my way through the maze  Balanced between hurt and anger  But with a strong desire to blaze on  Got my craze on  Small town opinions tried to hold me down  Learned to ignore them  (Bunch of background noise)  Sang my own choir  Wrote my own opera  Moved to a beat that brought me up then down Thought love was something outside of me  Equated worth with sexual attraction  Drained my energy on men that weren’t worth the sacrifice  Still pushing forward  Yearning and aching for understanding  Found it in brief reprieves  Let it fall on me like rain  But it never lasted  Like a desert I was barren  The drumbeat my heartbeat  My search went on  Found

Dear God  Show me  Sympathize  Don’t criticize  Try to understand  Me  As your child  Because I feel so lost  All the love seems gone  Dry and barren  We are consumed by greed  False idols  Only place I feel safe is deep inside of me  Only love I feel comes from my dog  It’s hard to live  Hard to relate  Hard to fight the urge to retaliate  I’m looking for mercy  Looking for love  I want to rise above  Raped and beaten  Tattered and torn  My soul is screaming out  To an empty sky above  Where have you gone?  Dear God  I’m covered in  Peril  Shame  Poison in the water  Death in the earth  Nothing feels safe anymore  Nothing feels sacred anymore  Help me to outlive this hell  Or at least succumb in peace  I come in peace  In pieces  For once I was lost  I’ve never been found  I’m looking for mercy  Hoping for love  Praying for a sign  That you’re still above  Feels like you’ve abandoned us  Forgotten