A New Groove
Thought the pain was love
Prayed that it would change for me somehow
From hurt to joy
Down on my knees
my God look at me
Asking for the Divine to deliver
The love I didn’t even have for myself
Didn’t realize I was losing my identity
Trying to be what you needed from me
Just needed someone to teach me how to love
When I did not even love myself
You broke my bones
shattered my spirit
It wasn’t love at all
Just possession for you
A doll on the shelf
A man on mute
Something you were proud to own
But never willing to appreciate
And all I wanted was love like I’d never known
What I found was incredible isolation
Indelible damnation
Trapped in a prison of my own creation
Sacrificed for you
Thinking what I had was solid
You slipped through my fingers like liquid
My love was only hope
And even that evaporated
Darkest of days
I sank
I sank
But I swam
Gasping for air
Bobbing helplessly in a sea of hurt
Betrayal
Dark, indigo
Salt water in my lungs
Somehow I survived
Clung to the only thing I could trust
Myself
Now just a hallow shell
Once so robust
Quit looking for love from the outside
Rebuilding my inside
Struggles and strife
My faith wavered at times
But I managed
Cut a new path for myself
New beginnings
An evolution
A new groove
Transitioned from dark into the light
Reborn
Feeling my pulse again
The hardest lesson was learning how to forgive myself
Looking for love
Should start within
Never making that mistake again
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