Words of Acadiana

and your voice i feel it in my bones i want to drink the damn place dry to feel what you're feeling just move in close to me it sure feels good and the world crumbles away like burnt paper carried in the wind when your hand is in mine it's true some things were simply meant to be and your art is what you were meant to do and it's what pulls me close sure feels good time is our to burn baby it's our to burn and i hear your soul and i feel your spirit a master an artist your song is my symphony and i breathe you in like the air i need my lungs full of you

watching you hone your craft and it makes me fall more in love with you you don't have to make another move there's nothing left to prove as your voice rings out in the night it falls upon my ears like prayers soft and healing i can feel the sincerity as your voice echoes dances in the air notes hanging like smoke they linger they alter the atmosphere i'm in love with a musician the music seductive i feel back in the world again and you've made it all so easy like a Greek island you burst green from the deep blue sea light as a Sunday your fingers graze the keys of the piano and i know later you'll play me i'll be your instrument you're my muse i'm yours it's the only way to be blond hair and blue eyes hypnotize me mesmerize me i watch your face as your song comes out and it's all so organic this love fills my heart with a song i'm back in the world in the world again

this is in no way a rant. it's just a testament that time changes people. i used to be so amused to be in a bar beneath the lights and the disco ball full of designer drugs. covered in designer clothes. i thought that it was what i was supposed to do. as a gay man. i was supposed to be fabulous. have a tan. blond hair. be skinny. no one taught me to nurture the inside. all emphasis was on the outside. and now i know it's not in the presentation at all. it's the intention that counts. what i hold dear now is my core. my center. my quiet time. peace. revelations. no longer a slave to that rat race. not going to try to look 25 when i'm really 41. not going to inject my face with fillers and toxins just so YOU think i look good. i apologize in advance for not being able to cheat time. but i'm busy over here with other work. i've been called to care for the sick. i've been called to be a student of the spirit. see, i look at the sky. the ocean. the mountains. and

i have a tale to tell been through hell a man can tell a thousand lies and sometimes that man was me you see i recently started to analyze my purpose find my true voice my ego melting slowly away at a glacier's pace time is a whore she fucks us all i'm no longer the 25 year old fresh faced boy i still see in my mind i know where beauty lives i know the light she gives the life that you could never see i'm freeing me from me the light it shines inside you can't take that from me left sometimes in the dark but my spark never died might've cried if i ran away i'd never have the strength to go very far how would they hear the beating of my heart the part that is buried inside no need to hide i'll let it out will it grow cold, the secret that i hide i will grow old this life is a ride and half of mine has passed hope i last long enough to tell my tale i know so well it's hell that attracts more attention than heaven

no struggle equals no strength almost cracked beneath the pressure no air no care it lifted gifted with a sense of peace some relief my feet planted on the earth birth of a new man with a hand in how he reacts no attacks like the wings of a butterfly flutter no stutter my peace is my goal i'm whole no hole my heart open and healed over a grower slower than most can't boast but i'm happy even if you call me fat i'm alright with that i spent enough time on the outside not where i reside anymore not a whore to the treadmill still i'll get it back on track this life is rollercoaster ride nothing to hide the ups the downs thrown all around these days i'd rather heal with my words than slay the day of that is done set that sun kept the light bright shine on

Been here since the beginning Sinning Winning Forgiving Forgetting Sometimes regretting How I treated you Undo Redo New Way of thought Brand new start You'll miss me when I'm gone Done me wrong Hurt my feelings Our dealings Cutting my joy short Gotta start Letting my emotions show Grow I'm a man by age Rage Not getting me results Insults Don't pay a damn thing So I'll sing From the heart Don't forgive me, I didn't ask Kiss my ass You don't support my path My wrath Silent Like rain My pain Waters my soul Whole Grown Thrown In a new direction Your affection Stole my emotions Right from under me Free Walls crumbling down All around me Free space to roam Coming home I see your face Space My place This is what I want Need Greed Had me held under Hear my thunder I don't feel bad Because I feel good Should Have flown long ago Let me show You that I'm still so good Hood Real It's a deal

Sought refuge Silence Peace Serenity Let my past fall like leaves from a tree Shed who I was Rebirth I deal with things in a different way now Things roll off my back I'm not attached to opinions Like assholes they can be ugly and everyone has one Won't let what you think dictate my movements No puppet Won't hold me down I've found my place in the sun Solid My core is unshakable And those things in the past didn't kill me So I'm  proverbially stronger No longer play the victim I write my destiny And faith leads me to learn and grow Leave behind what doesn't build me up Something will eventually take me out But it won't be you You don't have the power I can meditate shit away Let it float away Like clouds No longer raining on my parade