Words of Acadiana

  Like a flock of birds lifting from the tundra   White noise  Desperation  Fleeing  I had an urge to leave you The cold never suited me anyway   Snow and ice reigned over my path  I searched for a safe place to land   Like a magpie I was drawn to gold  The golden glimmer of the sun  To thaw out my frozen wings  To ease the spasms  As I stretched out again  Flapping  Creating thunder with my wings  Reunited with my own power once more  I lifted from the ground  Ice falling from my feathers  My spirit rose  I levitated above our ruin  Shining again  Free  Soaring  As the sun warmed my blood I found my voice again  Screeching  Grateful to tell my tale  Of hell and survival  You pick where you stay rooted  And I knew all along  The earth was not mine 

  When I was submerged   The River fed me   Like an umbilical cord  It was my life line  I was forming under the earth  Through magma and eruptions  The ground quaked with my arrival  Tectonic is my nature  She split open and gave birth to me My lungs filled with air  My first exhalation changed the atmosphere  The constellations communicated with me  Secrets unfolded  Guiding me  As though I’ve always known the path  Moving on and on through the sky  And catapulting back to the arid earth  With enlightenment comes the knowledge  That we are boundless  Boundless as the sands  Boundless as the heavens  We pass through this world  Pass through galaxies  Time is the greatest illusion  It is a trap  a perilous tomb  In my next life  I hope to escape it 

  Laying here in my bed   In my house  Desperately wanting to go home  That means something different to each of us  They say home is where the heart is  But for me it’s where my spirit roams  Where I feel most alive  For me it’s the dirt in the desert  The mountains sleep on their sides like giants  Oblivious to the passage of time  Time is irrelevant  From dust to dust  Cyclical  Layers of learning  Each time you return you have more to start with Each time you are closer to finding who you are  As your bones crumble beneath the earth  Realizations reach your soul  Epiphanies  Symphonies  Singing you back into existence  Sines from above  Healing your heart  When I was young I felt immortal  Now I know I am  With my face to the sun  I’ll come back again and again  Until there is nothing left to learn  In essence, forever  So forever my heart will dance  On warm desert winds  I’ll flow through the planet  Sending love  Supplying light   Amaranthine 

  Loving you   Like chasing wild horses  I can see your tracks ahead in the distance  Taunting me  While all I get is desert dust  Suffocating my lungs  Achy, tired legs  Too fatigued to carry on  This longing to throw my arms around your neck Met with bucking and screams for freedom  Yet you circle back  Wanting the love that escapes in pursuit of you  Free spirits roam the desert  Secretly wishing to be petted  But not be tamed  It’s a feathery dance  One of wanting to be loved  And another part an exigency to run  Like a witch in the desert  Begging you to come to me  Conjuring your love  Casting spells at the heavens Falling on the desert like rain   Incantations of unrequited love  Vibrate the arid ground beneath my spirit If I could melt your heart  We’d never be apart  I cry out into an empty, glacial vastness  Levitating above this desert tundra  I tread tirelessly in pursuit of someone  I may never acquire  I’ll exhaust    my power until it is no more  Lying like dust again on

  The full moon brought you in   Floated on the winds of destiny  Earth and sky meeting  Soil meeting deluge  A magical, witchy dance  Forces meant to be joined  Azure and sepia  Seeping into my dna  Like the bones of my ancestors  Haunted  Guided  Portugal to Australia  Crossing the Pacific  All the way across the USA  Blazing a trail through the desert southwest  To land in the swamp  Under a full moon, ceremony  A prophesized convocation  A consolidated coven  There’s power in 3’s  Earth, sky and time  Father, son and Holy Spirit  A covalent bond  Unbroken  To stand the test of time 

  Where sky kisses     earth   Brown gives  into blue  The jump off  Beautiful divide  It’s where the holiness resides  The sacred roams  It’s in this realm that healing takes place  Where the veil between this world and the next vaporizes  It’s that inner voice  The intuition that nudges you in the right way  It’s Santa Fe (Holy Faith)  It’s where I feel my ancestors’ bones  Where their spirits share wisdom  It’s just loud enough  And just quiet enough  If you can sit in stillness you’ll hear it  It vibrates your sacral chakra  Opens your third eye  It’s where we connect  Past and present  We are all connected It’s the ghosts that still walk  Still speak  They reach out to us  Their wishes land on us with the wind Teaching us that we all go on forever  We just change forms  Embrace it  For one day soon we will all be dust  Blowing around 

  weren’t even out of the woods   Before the arrows pierced my back  Searing through my flesh  Splintered ribs  Collapsed lung  Had such high hopes for us  And here I am now gasping for existence  Stubborn as ever  I refused to expire in such a foreign terrain  Hallucinated to the desert  And let the dirt seal my wounds  I healed from the inside out Buried beneath the sands  Centuries passed  Until I rose   the great Phoenix  A new    life  New breath  New form  Pestilential dust once flesh and bone  Rising from my wings to reintroduce me  Yet my scars remained to teach me  That perfection is not the desire  Survival is  I conjured up rain  clouds pregnant with deluge  Emptied their contents  Onto parched earth  In an instant the entire landscape morphed  I opened my mouth  Wet my throat  Gave life to my lungs again  Akin to a sponge  Absorbing the change in my form  Raised my hands to the sky  As thunder poured out of my palms  Lightning placidly falling to earth  Evaporating haste  U

 Sometimes I feel like I am made of Adobe. That my whole existence is plastered together with mud and water and I’ve come to form by the sheer intention of the sun. 

  Marfa, TX has a way of  seeping into your bones. It becomes part of your DNA. A place you have to return to in order to recharge. 

  My bones, an essay penned by Earth  In the vernacular of gravity Letters shaped in mineral ink Stained by the hands of time  In my body is a hidden text of mountains Punctuated by thunder, lightning and sea salt  Untamed  How clever to ensconce me within the skull, a captive audience  A reader who has become the page

In my bones, desert dust  Sweeping winds cleansing the plains  Wide open, vast  Deep within my marrow ghosts reside  Secrets buried  Fractured memories of roaming warriors  Screams piercing the endless canyons  Echoes  Of wounds unable to heal  Articulations  Flesh torn from bone  Like thieves in the night  Ripping away centuries of ceremony in seconds Robbed  A carcass of past existence  Left rotted and wasted  By the seduction of greed  Head bowed  Silently decomposing  My bones return to desert dust  My soul returns as rain  Muddying the massacre  Blurring history  A water-colored dream  Life is a circle  Life is a circle 

Sex with you  Like a funeral procession  Snaking its way through the Quarter  Heavy  Mournful  Hallow  Black I died so many times  Just trying to show you how happy you could be But you never chose me Petit mort  Then finished  Left me to mop up the mess  Flowers strewn Music swelling through the air Death March  On a path to lay it to rest  But like Jesus it resurrected so many times  Was always a safe bet We’d keep our dicks wet  Holes were filled  Souls empty  Treacherous ground Two twisted souls  Witchery  Traps lay in wait  Footsteps on cobblestones  The night black as death  Seeping in  To do us in  Flesh collapsed on flesh  Heaving  Thrusting  A lustful pile  Until we were exhausted  Burned through it all  Even the lust evaporated  Into clouds that brought the torrent  Like holy water it fell  Flooding every surface  To wash the sins away  Yet somehow we were reborn  Time and time again  Through centuries of time  A karmic explosion  I’ve prayed for death  The death of us  To er