Words of Acadiana

i got caught up in the heat of summer i got swept away in thoughts of you the music pulsing through me moving me making it all come alive like the glorious soundtrack to a fantastic life grooving the sun beat down on my face you lit up my night nothing better and when you held my hand you also had my heart felt it in my heartbeat felt awe for the first time for something other than my own reflection you wounded my narcissism you set my soul free beneath cobalt blue skies and crystal clear aquamarine water we swam to our own beat my skin on fire with your touch a craving i had an appetite for your love in those lazy, hot days we flourished New Orleans in all her beauty just fed our lust the dripping moss above us the ancient streets beneath us we danced we loved the summer breeze pouring in from the River giving a hint of relief from the blistering sun everytime i look out from Jackson Square i can feel your touch and it refreshes me

In those days it was simpler The summer nights seemed to last for days Carefree escapades The humidity stuck to us Heightening the lust Magnifying the fun Sometimes I felt like the sun's light only existed for my skin Energy swarming Kisses that had the power to make your day Bronzed lovers Stealing moments in the grass Standing on a balcony on St Ann Your fingers caressed my blond hair As you bit my lip softly I think there's something about the heat in the South It makes you not care about anything but relief The moon The dew Cooling off the intensity of the day I ran into your arms Our love innocent Still makes me smile So long ago Summertime still brings that feeling out in me You still touch me Like the amber light of the sun You light up my life

the best part is knowing when i'm looking perfect with a great outfit and great makeup and feeling on top of the world invincible in my beauty and personality and who i am the worst part is knowing that underneath the clothes is not what everyone sees with clothes the worst part is every night when i strip down before my shower and looking in the mirror and wondering "where did I go?" where is the me i just saw just a few minutes ago the real me without my makeup and clothes my reflection is a lie the person in the mirror has my face but not my body and the worst part is bathing that body that in the back of my mind i know is me but the feeling that i'm washing someone else makes me wanna cry the best part is in the morning when i hop out of the shower and wrap that towel around my head and my body and chest and look in the mirror and think to myself "hey, there you are" and smile really big putting on my stockings and dress or skirt o...

When i was a kid i was scared of myself so i locked me away in a bottle and placed me on a shelf scared of what family would think opinions of my parents scared of not knowing why i always felt different i learned to act and how to behave i learned to be strong and hidden away i got beat i got bullied i'll never forget his name and i remember how 8 years ago i saw him and he lowered his head in shame he apologized for picking on me and offered to buy me a drink he said i had changed and grew taller and stronger i laughed and bashed him in the cheek i said "pick on me now. i'm not little anymore." he got up and wiped his face and ran out the door i remember acting like a man pretending to be what i thought others wanted my good looks although i was very shy trying not to flaunt it i remember my first love and great i thought she was when some people picked on her outside a movie theater i put a knife to their throat because i wouldn't let ...

baby you're my heaven and you can't find something that  you already have and i already have you to hold it's a fine dance between wanting and needing you and i've protected my heart for long but there it sits for you in the open vulnerable when you're with me i touch the sky dance in the stars it's in your eyes it's all about your smile you weaken me you strengthen me so i want to take it easy to have and not to hold i want to be free in love free to love my hustler nature want to get it while it's good so i'm dropping everything both of us branded with stars like star crossed lovers intertwined divine i'm perfectly wild throwing in the towel so come and get me and take me home i think it's where i want to belong

our love was like entering death for me unknown scary like Psyche and Cupid's our story unfolded twists and turns metamorphic i'll never be the same we both played the role of Psyche beautiful but flawed not possessing of love we both tried to be Cupid armed with poison arrows looking for a vulnerable moment to prey on i got caught up in the enjoyment of the pedestal you put me on and your arrow tore through my heart struck down by poison it ripped through my flesh it pinned me down it consumed me hypnotic erotic Zephyr carrying me to a new destination unaware that your dark powers originated in revenge cursed by the gods you came to me in the dark i could not see your face but i liked the way it felt i sought to reveal your true identity and you ran from me leaving Worry and Sadness to whip me presented with challenges during my journey to win you back my intention was self harm but the divine let me back to you and i overcame the obstacles i ...

Love Spent that's how you left me blindsided alone on the floor emptied of emotion barren of feeling and if you'd held me as tightly as you grasped at my money we might've made it but you pretended and i paid and i paid in more ways than i realized at the time Love Spent broken bent twisted angry confused and i will sweep up my pieces rebuild continue on my journey i invested so much in us that i lost me you gained i lost you tried in vain to capture my light a vampire of my energy i'm Love Spent don't trust in it anymore and the only love i seek these days will be the love i have of myself it's a Leo's greatest strength afterall so leave go take what you've gained i can smile knowing that it's not yours to hold really and you'll lose it someday