Cigarettes & Regret
Circled myself in salt
The moment I locked eyes with you
Cigarettes and regret
The writing was all over the wall
Like a blood stain
Destruction loomed
Even as lust bloomed
Attracted like magnets
Opposites
Sometimes working in sync
Mostly working against each other
Scheming in the night
Secret messages and meetings
You had one foot in my door
And the other in others
Yet somehow you’re still my favorite ghost
Eyes so green
They looked backlit
Emeralds in the dark
Hair like a raven
In search of things with shine
You found me at a time
That I was blind
A baby witch in my infancy
Had no idea the atrocities coming to me
You fed on my heart
Left my decaying carcass on display
As you ran off with your next victim
So I dove deep into the earth
Deep into myself
Let nature lap at my gaping wounds
Masturbated my lacerations
Spoke to the trees
Whispered to the birds my deepest desires
Faced my fears all alone
Emerged as a new force
But still with a hole in my heart
Your named carved into it
Like stone
Hard and cold
Lava bubbling beneath the surface
Like smoke, I rise
Hover above the surface of the sea
In control now of the waves that once threatened me
Scream into a starry night sky
Demanding the universe to return my power
All of the attention I gave away
Intention
The driving force that forces me forward
Intertwined with bones
The love notes you wrote
Burning in the night
I’ll light
My way forward with the fire
Of desire
That we held once so tightly
That it suffocated who I was
And drove me to madness
Crushing sadness
Winds of change
Change who I am
Unstable as nitrogen
Craving explosions
I’ve learned that sometimes
The only way out is through
So I threw
Dynamite
So bright
Rubble and confusion
Scarred and bloodied
Yet I survived the Great War
Triumphantly
The new me
Rises with my third eye
I see
You were never enough to deserve me
I cast spells
Tell tales
One day you’ll be caught in a web
Of your own lies
Your own demise
Written by your own hand
Fate sealed
Like my lips
I won’t feed your ego with my energy
Like logs into the fire
Choking on the ash
I lasted
Long enough to go far away
And I roam this land of mine
Treading a new path
Marking my territory
Establishing natural boundaries
I sing my song like the night bird
Drifting on the wind
Landing on your window seal
Watch as you sleep
Frozen in fear
Unaware
That your night terror is me
Your least favorite ghost
You sensed that I had powers
But you had no clue of their immensity
You’ll need a big god
To rid yourself of me
The times in the night that you can’t breathe
Grieve
The nights that you slept in peace
While I paced
Devastated and distraught
Tables turn
Bridges burn
And now you have no way out
Haunted and afraid
I suck on your soul like a cigarette
No regret
As you fill my lungs and I exhale
Satisfied
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