Words of Acadiana

i mourned you for 40 years i've been absent for 2 and i've come back renewed i dance on your grave sword and shield in hand stronger wiser not guided by the wind like the sails of a ship anymore in control of my vessel i celebrate your ending that's when my torch got lit turned me into a man when i was a child and it confused me for so many years until i figured it out slayed the dragon that was my past not the direction i'm headed in anymore fate played its role brought me where i was to begin my journey without you never knowing that father figure i tried Filling Wholes holes in my heart in my soul the struggle seemed so real to me until i realized it was all in my mind time has erased any concrete memories of you you're just a ghost now and i'm suited up for battle but what i'm fighting for me is me now not fighting against anything i've healed i've been lifted up i bear your name

and i feel you like my flank has been slashed your sword sharp a hot pain i feel faint but i know i must make it out of this darkness this struggle this fight the fight we all have teetering over hell while reaching for heaven the angels and demons the thirst for something real it moves my feet carries my soul what started as a drunken haze has grown into something i want to surrender to your aura is red passion love you found the kink in my armor stabbed me when i wasn't looking at anything but your eyes didn't know any better and now i'm at a place where i could still walk away but i won't i can't give up on this the fight i've had in my heart my whole life it lead me to this moment and the angels slay their harps while the demons lap at my feet feels so good sounds like heaven i'm not sure which one to give into i only know i can't give up this is what i've been living for Love

the beat starts and the lights feel like home this place is my church working my demons out note by note movement by movement my hips sway my arms reach upward moved transcended this is redemptive for me this dancing the sweat falling away from me steamy visceral and i feel surrounded my love guarded my angels i'm gonna carry on i've slayed my demons buried my regrets jumped over bitterness i've found my escape found my cure music moves my bones like a matador seducing the bull it draws me in bleeds me writhing collapsing with a joy i can't describe baptized by my own perspiration i feel like a new man

when i wanna burn brighter you're always my lighter like Roman candles in the dark the night bleeding sparks i ride your heart past the moon grab a hand full of stars and smear them on my arm just to remember this moment forever stamped on my skin forever on my heart and you're my lighter my fire burns brighter astral bodies drip like wine drunk on a love divine so heavenly i could leave here don't need nothing but you us two me and you you move towards me quickly and slowly at the same time mine you blow my mind my heart bursting like a super nova new beginning what i've known no longer what i feel real a galaxy of love just for me a night full of stars shooting down all around me you finally found me i can breathe deep in relief

you sent me flowers for breaking your heart you hugged me tighter for blowing it apart so let's light this spark strike the match i adore you i do pure and simple no filters like wine on my lips the movement of your hips drunk on you i started living dip my toes into your waters i'm whole again free of sin cleansed i've been baptized by your love i adore you naked and exposed baby i cry out for you sometimes i'm scared of showing my hand but i remember it's not a game with you my soldier armed with weapons you protect what i treasure the most and my heart belongs to you even when i push you away i'm secretly begging you to stay i adore you i love lying next to you i could do this for eternity you and me meant to be vulnerable confident you make me feel you make it all real i adore you lost in your smile i could read you in braille

i'm falling free the clouds between my legs the ether dissolving sinking crashing through walls so well constructed i never imagined they'd fall crumbling your smile is like the sun piercing the dark full of promise relief release it gives me life this attraction i can't fight it so i close my eyes and give in and continue my fall i feel like a feather floating carried beneath the winds of change i'm falling i've fallen free

4 years and many miles later and we are still hanging on that connection we made so many summer nights ago still glows your smile shames the sun for me you hung the moon you're a dream i never want to wake from you taste like rum when you kiss me and i just wanna be your lime together you and I you make me want things i didn't even know i needed can't help but smile

just a man at the sea what more can i be? as the ocean laps the shore it erodes me forevermore lost and found losing ground gaining soul feeling whole blue waves crash into boulders i release the weight of the world from my shoulders healing dealing breathing conceiving new ideas form no storm just sun finally won done with the past amassed a bank of gratitude latitude longitude a new attitude setting sail all hail the new me the man at the sea who can i see what i used to be didn't work for me set free wrote it in the sand and watched the land give way to the sea as it's meant to be wipe your slate clean like aquamarine

we were like a fire so hot but so far away the only thing left of us smoke weightless temporary fading as the wind dilutes us gone

It's so fucking raw It hurts to touch My bleeding heart it aches so much i ran ragged for our love then i ran from it as fast as i could just looking for someone to fuck the soul out of me alone with my books an intense solitude i so craved but what do i do once the story is told? and the hard cover closed? these stories don't keep me warm the hold my imagination but not my body and my flesh aches for yours still stories words unfold some ending some won't i wish we hadn't have we? i want to viciously kiss you again until you have to wipe my taste away from your mouth i want to press my body so far into yours that you wear my scent throughout the day as a reminder of what you had but have since lost find me again this fucking story isn't done it goes on and on without end amen

Lord make me an instrument of Your peace That i may find it within myself and also seek it out in others Grant me clarity so that i may see the tasks and challenges at hand Instill faith in my soul so that i may know that in the times that i am walking through my grief that i am not alone Give me the wisdom to lay down my burdens that are too heavy for my walk Give me courage to let go of things that are unhealthy for me and have weighed me down in the past let them fall away so that i may emerge with wings to soar Let me know my purpose Let me not make excuses Render me deaf to the critics and fill me with forgiveness Let my spirit be cleansed so that i may begin anew Let me see my mistakes with clear eyes and take those lessons with me into the future so that i may learn from what did not work for me in the past Let me distinguish the difference from the voice of soul and my ego so that may go forth with good intentions Give me strength to do my work Let me be a wi

i look at your pictures and i feel like Jesus on the cross i'd give you everything i have i'd give it all up for you the perfect representation of my fantasies in human form and i want to drink you like wine until you stain my lips your hips let's writhe intertwined wanting, waiting, needing yearning, burning for you to justify my love to make this shit real lay your heart out on the table for my consumption be at my disposal talk to me i wanna know your stories i wanna know your fears i wanna be in your dreams naked exposed raw i'm not afraid of who you are like birds, let's fly so high on this ride two souls on a search looking for love exploring unconditional territory let's make something immortal on the floor against the wall in a bathroom stall calm and innocent filthy and dirty let's make love until we wear it out strip each other down the core bite my lips ride my hips in love in anger in rage no cage to

freedom Oh Freedom over me i feel it in my bones "before i'll be a slave i'll be buried in my grave" these words i heard as a child shaped me i didn't believe anyone deserved to be treated as less than i found it ridiculous that we had to fight to free women, then blacks, and now gays created equal isn't that what we are told? but not what we see practiced freedom it's something we all deserve as children of God fuck the mockers the bullies the preachy folk until you have had to march for your rights you do not recognize how important to you they are how essential they are how much you will sacrifice for them how far you will go to achieve them our nation has a very dark history that needs to be shined some light upon we killed off the people that rightfully owned this land we imported people that we declared had no worth to work as slaves to feed the greed of our growth a war divided us a war still divides us so much of it is

cut me down the middle fucked me up a little i tried to give you everything played my part of the stage but you wanted all the praise like you'd deserved it you acted as if i was no longer needed my words drew them in and you took the bow stole the credit you didn't earn snatched my crown but i dwelled there long enough and i'm here to say that i'm back, bitches Heartbreak City you can have that mess i'm best when i'm standing on my own two feet saying what i want doing what i want i'll take the credit as i earn it was never one to operate in the shadows i'm a seeker of the Light i'll draw them back in show them what i'm about show them this dance of love and seduction this artistry of love this wicked fight like a matador i'm suited up for battle my sword in tow ready for the applause as i slay the bull of my ego and let everyone witness it bleed out a river of crimson pride

incense fills the air heavy heads bowed in prayer sacred i feel the connection to who i once was still believe in some of what was shoved down my throat doctrines that didn't make sense dogmas that ridiculed never uncoded no equality how was i supposed to focus on my faith in a world only ruled by penile codes? where sex and murder could both buy your way into hell? i wasn't taught the most important lesson of all the signature gospel of Christ Love Thy Neighbor that includes everyone Jesus didn't die for your sins so that you could treat anyone as less than our collective guilt crucified Him He didn't select who His blood saved it saves each of us even the priests who prey on the young they are forgiven too for they are only men who are lifted upon pedestals and then slain when they give into their desires so i sought a new path i closed my eyes and i took a deep breath i was quiet my intent was peace for everyone no rules no judgment

Our love turned dark and cold the sky began to fall the end of it all a civilization in ruin apocalyptic love full of evil and hurt fought your rage wise as a sage but i couldn't smudge it away couldn't save our day the lies grew like vines around my heart tearing its chambers apart with thorns forewarned by friends who were foes one never knows until you look back the attack left me navigating in a world so dark i swore i was blinded it's post apocalyptic now not sure how to pick up the pieces of my heart they're so far apart so lost and so cold sold for a penny on the dollar my work unrecognized will the sun ever shine? now that you're no longer mine into his arms you fled once the wound you created bled ripped open and mangled entangled strangled by a grey sky full of ash survived the crash suffocating in soot like Pompeii i lay in ruin strewn my beautiful scars evident will be others entertainment for history mystery

In love we took risks turns and twists i slit my wrists i slowly bled a river of red angels fell out of heaven when we fell out of love their tears poured down like rain from the dark skies above your words like poisoned arrows penetrated my heart and once united we slowly crumbled apart like Pompeii i'm covered in our ash from a love that couldn't last that blast so strong it knocked out my light despite my might i was failed to win couldn't piece us together again full of shame and regret i can't forget falling for your lie a tear from my eye evaporates into the air surrounding me clearly, my head bowed this path i've plowed of a love gone wrong i sing this song and angels weep i sink beneath the deep carried away on an ocean of loss the cost i paid i've prayed that i make it through this moment and see the sun shine once again no lover no friend it feels like an end darkened skies the angels' cries too weak to fly my

met you at a time when i was down and your lips brought me to heaven our love was my church sang our hymnal Lord lifted me up fired your shot into my heart the devil lapped at my feet but i kicked him away cast away his bitterness closed my eyes and like music our loved carried me above the clouds prayers rained down on me redemption for my wicked ways i felt delivered saved baptized swam through the waters of you i felt like a stronger man wiser with each step before you i had been treated with such disrespect but now i'm born again never going to give up this fight this journey love, lifting me up my hands in the air my head bowed yet i retain my crown still king of my kingdom i'll save my own damn self in the end never needed the role of victim not relying on you to save me just love me no desire to bear the stigmata not looking to fix what's broken in you i will love it all until we both mend your words take me to heaven i feel like

the geologist digging for treasure cracking open geodes seeking beauty stumbled upon me said i was your King and now you want your freedom that's not how history has written this story we've both come from south of the border consumed in sin i wanna bring you to your new destination where you can live out the rest of your days see your clever game tried to get the best of me but you didn't know the rest of me i'm stronger with each blow this crown fixed upon my head i refuse to give in laugh at your tears Heartbreak City is where you belong singing your song won't win me back you lack what i need filled with greed stealing my time and soul won't fall into that hole like Alice i won't be lost i'm boss your loss game over for you

traveled this world mostly alone my eyes and ears open my heart closed i built walls strong and high at the end of the day nothing lasts everything crumbles into dust erodes when i met your it was like fireworks against a blue black sky at times it feels that we are speeding toward our destruction apocalyptic the warning signs are everywhere but it's something i just must do if it kills me i can at least say i loved you once and forever bury myself beneath the hurt from beneath the rubble comes my rebel yell