Words of Acadiana

the adoration that i sought was yours but i was unaware i still thought that the whole world needed to love what i offered i didn't yet to know to be so specific and i did anything in my power to be noticed changed who i was changed what i looked like to satisfy the ever-changing taste of the world around me from Miami to New York i danced sometimes to my own beat sometimes the beat of someone else i swam in the oceans in Miami i dredged through the concrete of New York City looking for what i was meant to be a party boy a chameleon even while pretending to be superficial i knew that what i felt was different i remember the first time i saw you incredible and all was beautiful simple you appreciated me for who i was beneath the guise so i trade being loved by everyone to being loved my you it's easy no thinking about it my soul wants it i love you you love me we have overcome so many obstacles i love you it's simple pure true what can i ...

i learned something about love with you. i learned that it doesn't hold onto our youth like our egos do. i learned that it isn't perfect like we'd like it be. i learned that it takes work even if it seems easy. i learned that i'm not always the masterpiece behind the ropes. that sometimes i'm the gawker staring at the beauty before me. that sometimes i won't be able to express how overwhelmed i feel by the beauty i see in you. that sometimes my darkness won't seem capable of your light. that sometimes it will feel like i'm stealing your love. that i will at times feel less than. that i will question my belief system. that i will change how i react to things. i will succumb. i will face my own vulnerability. that i will be ok with admitting that i need something greater than myself. that i will seek something more important than my own reflection. that i will be guided toward your love....even if i feel unworthy

no longer so young nor so golden i can recognize my flaws now i can make peace with my deterioration the outside maybe fading but the inside is growing more beautiful closer to the truth i've heard the words the criticism that i'm fat  that i'm old that i'm almost bald that i've done it all and with a smile on my face i think "you ain't seen nothing yet" you have no idea what lies ahead for i'm shedding my attachment to the exterior and i'm working on the interior developing my own belief system and i believe in me something in me will carry on you can't stop that

do i inspire you? could i sinspire you? could i light that fire in you? could you burn up from my love? could you fuck me in the street and not care? could you dare? the way you bite my lip the way you grip my hair and pull on me from behind rewind to a time when it was more innocent like an infant sucking on my thumb playing dumb trying not to give into your advances dying to take chances this game of love we play the 3 words i've been dying to say between my thighs not like other guys that didn't mean a thing i'd wear a ring i'd say "i do" to be with you i'm not chicken-al to be traditional that's the most shocking fact how you react will write our story guts and glory i reach for my glass and notice your ass divine mine like sips of wine on my lips strips me of any care i dare to share i give my hand to you made anew this smile that i wear i swear it's all about you and what you do

attraction reaction so much satisfaction a physical attraction a chemical reaction visceral satisfaction from the moment i saw your face i knew it's never gone away i have carried my love for you like an egg careful not to shatter it they say when an egg is broken from the outside, any chance of life dies but when it breaks from the inside, life begins so i'm leaving it up to you for once i relinquish my desire for control i know you love me too you've proven that time and time again there is magic between us something unspoken rare beautiful i don't particularly believe in marriage for myself but i'd marry you right now in this room if you'd have it love seeps from my pores i love you so you change the way i think i like that thinking only of myself for so long has made me grown tired of myself i'm ready to try something new

my mind is full of "perhaps" tonight perhaps if i'd made more time for you perhaps if i'd relinquish some of the time i spend with my friends and family perhaps perhaps we could've made something of our connection but i'd have had to give up too much of myself for someone i don't feel even knows how to meet halfway so perhaps the best has happened perhaps i'm better without if someone can't love you for who you are, it's time to exit if someone faults you for having friends and family as your top priority perhaps his priorities are not in order perhaps i'm getting out of it the easiest way possible perhaps perhaps i will retain who i am at least i know that i'm still willing now i know that a few good ones are still out there perhaps when i'm not paying any attention to it someone will come along perhaps perhaps perhaps all i know for sure on this night is that my faith remains unshaken and perhaps that was th...

i walk on the ground that you rest beneath and time has stripped you of your flesh just a bunch of dust now and if i could reach my arms through the earth to hold you i would a void a six foot deep hole swallowed you resting in peace i hope long ago i try to imagine what you'd be today what we'd be in my mind you would have accepted me for all my flaws supported me even when i was failing in my heart you have your legacy lives on and as morbid and haunting as it feels at times i'm glad not everyone has an angel watching over them but on this day my heart is sinking it's so hard to accept that you're six feet beneath me so close yet so far there's a scar in my soul that each day i try to hide and on most days i succeed but today it overwhelms

our love like a flock of birds scattered fly on and you weigh heavy on my heart hovering above and i look to the heavens and think of you just like a flock of birds in every direction we flew and this pain that i feel is sweet sadness for i loved you so my hand fit into yours i think of you i don't forget you're always in my head like prayers i offer my words to the wind and hope they are carried to you i never really got the chance to know you you were the great mystery the other half of me and still i love you just for being for if you never existed i wouldn't put pen to paper i'm half of you and i hope that half makes you proud i may not look like you but perhaps i feel like you did maybe you had a poetic soul and on this night that though feels like a hug and it's enough

on a starry night beneath the light of the moon basking in the twinkling of the stars above me feels like something is broken inside me something is lost whenever you go all i know is that i love you so so much that it hurts got a tattoo on my arm a constellation of my own all i know is that i am lost in your fire below on a starry night it's clear to me that your mark on me is permanent between sips of wine i smile my soul fed my head calm all of my life i've searched for the way that i feel right now on this starry night

days like this long and summery the sun kissing the earth lighting the way i stroll around looking at the flowers and this minute is precious almost perfect i watch the fruition of the seeds that you planted and all my life i've had to learn the art of letting go it never gets easier but my tears celebrate what you were to me the legacy you leave letting go isn't easy it's exceedingly hurtful but you're always in my head forever in my heart so i look up with hope and i feel you up above i can feel your arms around me i can sense your love

i have an angel he wears no wings he wears a heart that melts my own he has a touch that feels like home you've got to be careful with good love you changed my whole world with one smile we share the same soul the same world big and small grand and minute it's the joy that i feel when you're around it's like the best drunk ever it's like our life is in sepia tone softer gentler i get it now "love should be easy" looking at those stars together better i am better than i was a year ago and better than i was the year before that time marches on all the dreams have made their way into my day to day scene

there were noises in my head voices telling me just to stand still breathe the moment in feel the air fill my lungs and just be happy with what i have and who i am simplicity the sunlight bathing me in peace and at that moment my soul grew wings and stretched them out to prove their strength ready to soar the only thing i know right now is that i should......i should....

looking up at the constellations starry eyed surprise a night blooming with stars pinpoints of light in a black velvet night and sometimes getting lost is not a waste of time especially when it's with you and a bottle of wine listening to you tell your stories you caress my arm and trace my own constellation this love this moment it's simple and pure stars above us chasing the day away all else fades fades away night eventually giving way to day and we are on this blanket together and it's perfect it's nice in life that sometimes when you can't get what you've wanted fate hands you what you've needed

Chasing the Fairy’s Ass So many people lost happiness. Happiness is such a nebulous concept. It is different for each individual. Finding it can be difficult, especially because we often think one thing will make us happy and then we find that it doesn't. We often don't recognize happiness. Think about this...think of your first apartment. For most of us, it was a small apartment in a questionable neighborhood with used or cheap ass furniture and a fridge filled with condiments from fast food places and 7-Elevens and a cupboard filled with Ramen noodles. Band and movie posters on the walls, small TV (possibly with rabbit ears), crappy stereo with antenna at full crank. One bowl, one plate, one glass. Maybe two or three if you had room mates. One or two sets of sheets and towels. A vacuum...umm...do we need that? Yeah? Well, okay...You probably spent many a night in that crappy apartment, music on, kicking back drinks with friends, trying to drown out the noise from the wh...

Now who do you think you are? I can smell you from afar Trying to take up all my time Not giving me a dime Walking Doing all that talking Prancing When I’m the one romancing Selling the book of you No thinking for a life of two Mista Big Stuff I know I’m more buff Now where you going? With all those people you’re owing Telling all them lies Won’t even super size my fries Prada or Louis V Isn’t going to get you far with me Talking When I’m doing all the walking My victory Leaving you with glory I’ve had enough Mista Big Stuff

Let the elevator doors close So I can check up these hoes Nobody needs to see this story All these faces looking quite whory Now it’s just us in this little square Oh, don’t pretend, now, you care All the things done behind my back Can’t be protected by your pack You can’t run Bitches your done What you gotta say now How Do you think you can get away With being so spiteful everyday My misinformed boos Yes, all of yous We got plenty of time on this elevator To figure out who’s the worse hater Let’s get the facts straight Drown out the hate Or I can come at you Choke your face blue It’s your choice Use your voice Say your hate to my face Or let your face and my fist embrace None of ya’ll are getting off easy Ya’ll making me feel greasy Look around this elevator you’re in Choose how you gonna get out

monday tuesday thinking you could use me i broke out of your house never gonna be a spouse never gonna promise myself to your weakness a mess like a candle more light than you could handle blinked my tears away my scandal my way to continue on without a fight my might grew inside couldn't hide slept with the enemy aware that he was smothering me trying to quiet my voice my choice to break away from you through with us a bust everyday i live with the side effects but i ain't gonna let them get the best of me i was naive believed everything you told me sold me into slavery my bravery hidden forbidden in your world still i kept my tears inside cuz i knew if i started i'd keep crying the rest of my life with you now that we're through still careful of the people i let inside reside in those memories of you trapping me in your world whirled into side effects like a drug hazed dazed confused felt used up by what you brought me t...

Well, knowing America’s history Maybe we don’t even know what sexy is Real life, not sex ed, gave me the story Education has just become religious biz Quite honestly, as I am learning There should be a healthy balance What animal doesnt have any sexual yearning Keep physical and mentally expression at a balance However, do know mental expression of sex Is much more than what muscles you flex America is failing the sex test It’s not all physical, so let’s put that to rest On earth, a human body is another animal But in the media, its to be sexually consumed

well when you walk by every night talking sweet and looking fine i get kinda hectic inside this ride of our love like a rollercoaster when i close my eyes you come and take me let's be swept up in this feeling healing what was wrong like a song soothing the beast a priest taking me higher a flier full of your lust combust glitter not dust explodes in the air around us discuss this feeling welling deep inside of me set free it's just a sweet sweet fantasy baby i'm in heaven with my boyfriend my lovely boyfriend there's no beginning and there is no end on the mend full of love inside this ride like a tide up and down and all around trying to sink us think us instead of me be together in your arms safe from harm you take me far away baby

wish me luck oh wishing well to kiss and tell my love you wear so well the shell erodes corrodes what lies beneath relief to not have to pretend not your friend your lover not your brother smother my face in the pillow kissing like a bandit stealing time underneath the sycamore tree be with me slowly surely your appetite is more than i knew i blew kisses into the wind hoping you'd come to me we'd be together forever two lovers exposing our souls roles reverse over and over red rover red rover i want you near me in me don't fear me fall into my well tell me you love me be my soulmate don't wait no wrong this song in the middle of the night with all my might

stripped down to my core bored by all the shit you threw my way trying to make me stay and all along i'd say my love don't cost a thing no ring can wrap its way around my heart we'll part if you don't understand my hand in my fate won't wait until you make up your mind leaving it all behind strip my soul bare no care in the world my toes curled from what you showed me in between the sheets two souls meet love and lust must not be very different if you're scared call that reverend i'm drunk in love above me you press against my skin we win covered in sin soaked to the bone throw stones i woke up like dis full of piss and vinegar don't be so insecure am i Jenny from the block sucking your cock or am i Beyonce flipping my hair wishing you'd care more about me than your own reflection rejection is a medicine that humbles my spirit inherent the blue print of my heart apart it feels like i'll have to gi...

I wanna kiss you in Paris I wanna hold your hand in Rome I wanna fuck you in Munich but you'd rather stay home you're boring as fuck stuck in a rut my gut tells me break free these thoughts in my head alone in my bed make me wanna give you a bruise and go drink lefft beer in Brugge Justify Justify my love now Justify Justify my love heavens above hell below dying to show you what i'm made of justify my love why can't you leave the house douse me with your fantasies strip me of my pantasies fuck me on the floor forever more justify justify my love now justify justify my love hoping praying just saying that you need to justify my love before it leaves and you grief that you couldn't justify my love

saw you from across the street knew we were fated to meet all up in my head thoughts of you and me in bed Open your heart to me baby i hold the lock and you hold the key you took my hand and we walked kissed in the park watching day turn to night this might just be the love that lasts forever however it's a struggle to expose myself put my facade on a shelf to show you who i really am inside nothing left to lose nothing to hide you looked into my eyes and you knew said you believed in us and i grew attached to you like stars to the sky my guy had finally found something worth the wait my mate Open your heart to me, darlin' I'll give you love if you, you turn the key

Sitting under a humid night the moon but a sliver the air moves in a gentle breeze my wine glass is half full my head is full of thoughts of you memories of us like fireworks against a summer night's sky so bright but destined to fade quickly intense i can't seem to give you up like a ghost you float part of my aura and on these summer nights all dewy and full of potential i'm reminded of the love we shared you hung onto me like the stars hanging in the sky a perfect fit but by daylight you were gone faded and that's why i love the nights for i can see your light far above my head twinkling you must be my Lucky Star 'cuz you shine on me wherever you are and i'd have it no other way goodbye are the words i just can't say

he's different than anyone i've ever known he begs me to show me what's different within me he likes what's imperfect about me about what makes me tick he likes my smile in the morning he could care less about the wrinkles and the grey hair he likes my laugh more than my biceps he's the real deal a keeper he tells me how i make his heart smile we have a secret code a language you'd never understand there's a level of comfort there i ran and searched years for this for this moment where i can feel alive and imperfectly perfect i can smile and not care about the crow's feet i earned those bitches he looks past it all i'm a lucky man for 40 years i thought i had to be perfect and BOOM that shit caved in changed everything i believe my eyes are open now and i appreciate what most people look past

"you write a lot of poems about love" he said "I'd like to know your backstory" he continued..... ....well.....let me tell you a little about me and you can understand my psyche i was born a Leo so i'm narcissistic by nature a curse and a blessing i put up a good front i disguise my insecurities with laughter and a seemingly confident exterior but inside i'm as fucked as anyone maybe more i grew up without knowing my father and it haunted me it was a mystery i couldn't solve the missing half of me it led me to seek out to act out i tried on so many faces i tried to be anyone and anything to fit in wanted to be what they wanted me to be so my poems about love are about as much about external love as internal love i have racked up a list of lovers that would rival anyone's but i recently learned to love me to accept my flaws to show them with pride i've earned them i was trying to fix something that i couldn't fi...

i am floating in the sea deep and cold dying in the water as the remains of our love fill my lungs suffocating me this love that i fought for this union that i believed in has left me half dead in the water i hold my breath and try to fight to right myself this panic grabbing hold of me no longer concentrated on saving us i only care to save myself i am too strong to die here alone floating like a fool your love rained down on me and became a flood then a river then a sea in its capacity immense but the fluidity that i used to enjoy became a rough ocean threatening me i find myself swimming for shore with all of my might as i floated there empty and afraid i learned that my joy is not in your smile it's not in your heart not even in your hands it's in my core my soul encapsulated and while i lay here exposed some things remain hidden from you you hurled your hate at me in an attempt to drown my joy gave up on our love so that you could be ki...

looking out of the window at the city streets below and an ache in me grows have you lost the same things i have lost? i wish my heart had no chains wish there were no boundaries in life no limits if time stood still we'd have no scars no hurt to cover up with smiles my heart aches it cries for the love we've lost we connected and sparks flew and they'd go on to burn both of us a great division then a reconnection but we'd both changed and our wants and needs didn't match so i watched as you left and your plane reached the clouds you must've touched down at your home by now there's loves that you lose and you go on knowing it's for the best well we don't fit that category i'll miss you for the rest of my life your love was my downfall fell so far and so fast i could not apply the breaks i chose the boy that everyone else adored and i didn't see that i wasn't as important as i thought someday my heart shall mend...

i feel your presence and your words fall on me like prayers church home heaven the sky opens up to accept me a worthy sinner repenter nothing less than forgiveness has let me in to begin again to try to get this right this fight dark vs. light i choose the sun undone by actions of my past holding onto to things that couldn't last made me sad made me mad i had the power within my soul to be made whole quicker than a ray of light i might sail into a better life less strife more love above my head clouds burst with tears of mourning a warning time to change rearrange what i hold dear the time is near i soar through the cosmos close to the speed of light i fight and good conquers all i fall back down to earth rebirth my worth grows and shows the smile on my face my new place Zephyr in the sky at night might blow me into new directions introspections i go within my soul control i thought i'd go it all alone i close my eyes and...

it's here in your arms i want to buried you are my sanctuary as the thunder unloads rain into my grave no longer slave to thoughts and beliefs i held onto you changed my outlook rewrote the book of my life like a knife you gutted my ego free to go who wants to sleep with the stars in the sky this guy made me a believer reliever of doubt i shout joy pouring from my voice my choice to live for love the heavens above my soul sores rain pours washing me clean sins unseen fall away new day the sun has risen no longer imprisoned

i woke up within a dream fell so in love with you prey to your magic found myself on a spinning wheel with you hurling daggers at me a look of love still in your eyes trying to tear me apart trying to make me fade from view and the audience applauded as you split me into two i felt the sharpness of your love and the warmth of the hate it grew into our ghosts roaming around loose things that happened to us in the past threatening to untangle us and my pysche may never fully heal but i don't want to be with anyone but you so spin me around if you must and thrust your knifes at me i will still trust in you i will still trust in us your magic keeps me here despite my fear so something in me is healing wanna fall so far i wanna fall so hard and keep falling in love with you day after day and let the audience applaud not my demise but our success for there is danger in the daggers but there is magic in your kiss and if you were to ask me after all we...

they drop their words like turds try to diminish you but replenish you won't finish you you've got work to do move through you show the world your beauty it's your duty to direct respect as beautiful on the inside as the out about fighting for your fellow man taking a stand so when they shower you with hate wait smile while they exhaust all their arsenal partial compared to what you share fair as they repent for being ignorant and you carry on with your journey no gurney not yet time to get back on your feet and spread your word not second or third but first in my book take a look in the mirror and see the same beauty you shine toward me

i feel your heat like a thousand Julys so hot i could cry this love we're in ready to begin you capture enrapture soothe me groove me i'd write you words but they're so hard to find nothing can express what it feels like that you're mine all my dreams it seems come true around you you walk into the room and the world darkens around you blue and black everything else falls back like a moon i orbit you true you take my breath away brighten my day your light so bright i can't fight this feeling inside can't hide that i'm in love with loving you i'll do whatever it takes to keep you around you ground my wildest behavior like a savior you sweep in and make it all better i couldn't get wetter in a rain of pain bathed and reborn sworn worn out from the experience of my youth searching for truth

gimme shelter or i might fade away on this fierce night with their words of hate and their actions of ignorance feels like a war is brewing a storm threatening over my life wanna run into your big arms and hide shelter me from the storm let it rage every storm eventually runs out of rain let them throw sticks and stones with you by my side i'll make it through for when things erupt you're my shelter you protect me from the nonsense your words are an umbrella that keeps me dry you keep me safe even when the enemy is within myself